Fatigue

well...its not a matter of settling for what we have right now. its a matter of the struggle to get to what we WANT...

i'm sitting here thinking whether the labor put in will reap the right results. what if all that work goes down the sinkhole with the rest of your hopes and dreams? will i wake up thinking, "well it was worth it...and i enjoyed myself the entire way"

honestly.

i dont know anymore.

and i'm tired. really tired.

Gin "nada"

The Sad Club

Gin..I can feel your bitterness and grief all the way from my shithole office. Sigh...welcome to the sad club.

To a certain extent I do agree with you. Waking up feeling like a lost little child, without any clue of the direction you're heading towards, a million unanswered questions, overwhelming doubts and emptiness plus the haunting "if only's"..is possibly the most rotten way to start the morning.

So I have been wondering... if we haven't found what we're looking for and for some reason, we just can't seem to find it.....could it be because we simply don't deserve it? Could it be maybe, just maybe, what you have right now is basically the best you can get? Hmm.

Sounds a tad too sad I know, but hey life isn't exactly perfect. I guess you deal with the problem in hand like a man, because remember that..what goes around, comes around. :)

lil'Lin^^

Incoherenity

So what do you do when you wake up in the morning feeling incoherent...

You lie in bed wondering whats wrong with yourself, and more importantly, whats wrong with the world and the people around you.

You cant make sense of it. It's all about the "he says, shes says...bullshit"

And you get to work feeling even worse. You try to justify and figure out why a brief moment of silence feels like a decade under the influence.

It's been like this before. And i don't want it to happen again.

Gin "someday we'll know"