Lose to time and u lose everything

Right person, wrong time. Wrong person, right time. Seriously, these theories are messing the shit out of my mind. I never truly believed in "THAT magical moment"..but it seems to be ringing loud in my ears right now.

Sometimes when you lose a person you love, it isn't because they weren't the perfect one for you..but because that magical moment you're longing for has not striked. Hence, the imperfection of timing. And so, you lose your supposedly THE ONE, because you lost to time. (a little too early)

Sometimes when you find a person you really love, but somehow he just can't be THE ONE because say, he is married, he is taken or he has commitment issues. And so you lose your supposedly THE ONE, because once again, you lost to time. (a little too late)

And finally, when that magical moment strikes, you meet someone - but you know that someone just isn't THE ONE, but because timing is perfect right now, he automatically becomes the one AT this time. So yeah, you didnt lose to time, you just didn't win the person you ever wanted...

IRONIC, isnt it? Ok im bullshitting like there's tomorrow. But if you get me....dude, you have REAL issues! :P

^^lil' Lin

Gastronomy

Having just finished a meal of KFC, shes feeling absolutely stuffed, exhausted from the chewing. Stomachs bloated. Head’s rather dizzy from the digestion. Veins clogged up from the oil and fats. All she wants is to sit back and digest, and let it all settle in.

She knows exactly what she wants for her next meal, a healthy serving of Chili Cheese Fries. But being so bloated from all the fried chicken, she would rather wait, digest, and relax, allowing hunger to kick in again before she places her order.

So for now, she is pacing herself, walking past the shop and taking glances at the picture on the menu in anticipation. The walking helps her digest a little faster, and the smell coming from the shop enhances the craving.

Carl’s Junior will just have to wait for its next customer patiently then, knowing that the order will be supersized.

Gin "When's Dinner?"

My Benediction

My energy is constantly being drained daily. Dealing with emotions that leave me exhausted. I think and think, ponder and ponder, trying to find the answer to why I indulge in this obsession even when it leaves me drained.

With no sense of security, and no sense of belonging; with no sense of fulfillment, and no sense of longevity, I ride this coaster, making it a daily routine of exhaustion. Waking up way before the alarm sounds, only to be disappointed by the image on my cell.

Have I lost myself? Delving so deeply into this. Realizing I no longer recognize the person in the mirror, or the person I wake up being. Never expecting myself to be in such turmoil, or committing so much hard work.

I want this, but I don’t want to feel like this. Lord, hear my prayer and relieve me from this burden, because you and you alone can release me from these lingering pains.

However, I thank you for the smiles and the laughter, the joy and the bliss. May you bless me with more of happy, and less of sad.

Gin "Hear my prayer"